Stuck

I love to write. In my own writing, it really helps me to get my mind off of things- about everything for a day. Just write what is in my heart and mind out on paper or on my computer. I thought I had everything to myself- ideas, thoughts, and titles. Themes without the words that I see in my head. I just keep typing the words on my keyboard and keep on writing. It is like, I know how to make a page. Start a sentence and to end the sentence with a period and make a chapter; I feel that I am stuck in my writing because there is so much about punctuation that I don't know.

"What kind of a writer am I?"

How does not knowing about punctuation or spelling the words the right way make me feel? I hear the story or a poem in my mind, and all I get is alphabet soup in my head.

I understand the importance of how I put the words on paper to try to make those words not hard for my reader to understand about what I am writing. I put words that don't make any sense ("I need help")..... I ask for help, but my dad tells me to sound the word out. I've tried my best, but nothing but a flat word comes out of my lips. A big fat nothing that only sounds like I feel - a slow speller.

A first born writer who does not know how to write. I can see why my teachers did not have the time to teach me more about writing back when I was in high school. I look back at my high school years and wish I had learned more about writing. I said goodbye books, goodbye pencils, goodbye homework, but for me I never stopped wanting to learn more about story writing.

But now, my parents are my teachers. They try to teach me about writing. At least I have my parents to help me. Teaching me, giving enough support as any writer needs to write a good story or a poem. My parents have taught me about good criticism, tough love and believing in myself. I have to get through a whole story.

Sometimes I feel stuck in my writing, but I don't have to feel stuck in a disability.

THE END

Thank you for your love and support and for helping keep me on track in all the years of my writing. I feel so grateful to have you around as my teachers- correcting me and pushing me into a better writer"....